If only...

I remember when we met
We were children then
And it was so long ago

If only I had known fate would be so cruel

Time passed
And we grew
Going through our life stages

Then I noticed that your footsteps
Grew slower then mine
And I never knew why

If only I had known

I got your letter
The day I recieved it wasn't a day
That I'd forget

We hadn't seen each other in so long then

I came there, to see you
You were so strong, the last time I remember
Suddenly, you've become so frail

"At first, I didn't want to tell you."

Was what I heard you say
"Why didn't you tell me?"  was a question unasked
Yet, I wish I did

If only I had asked

That number of pill bottles piled up
At first it was just a tube and pills
Then they stopped giving you pills

They ran more tests on you, I remember
Neither of us liked the results
You smiled as you cried

If only they could save you

You knew they couldn't
Eventually, it was just barely you
And it was mostly machines

Machines trying to steal back time for you

If only you could do it yourself

You were nearing the end
It was long and slow
And you took it quietly

If only you had fought more

But you couldn't
You fought long and hard, for a decent while
Now, you just needed to rest

If only I told you goodbye

But I knew you wouldn't have liked that
You wanted me to say "Hello" instead
Hah, funny that I'd remember

You never liked goodbyes

It was a quiet day, I remember
It was also raining and I was by your side
As you fell asleep

"We had a good run, didn't we?"

"Yes, we did."

"Thank you."

You fell asleep with your memories
Memories of what time we spent
I knew you would have it no other way

I remembered your favorite flower

It's a happy one

If only you were here to see the bouqet

That you've asked me for
They're pretty, I assure you, just how you'd like them
That bouquet you've asked me to bring

If only they were for your birthday

They've picked a nice spot
All just for you
Just how you'd like it 

If only you were here, again